What Tarot Card Are You Quiz

First of all – a quick note – for some reason, suddenly I’m getting hundreds of hits from closed weight loss forum sites, especially to a post called Facing the Weekend. I can’t see who put my site on there. Does anyone have any idea what is going on? Did anyone come from one of [...]

Not a post, article link

Too busy to post, hanging together mood-wise, not great but ok. But I came across this NYT article, and, hmm, sound familiar?

In which I fall back into my life

I know, I know, terrible to tempt fate. But it seems that the lithium + Wellbutrin combo is working. I’m not 100%, not even 50%. But I am not bat-shit crazy right now, and that brings both tremendous relief and tremendous horror at how I have acted over the past year. All the flying into [...]

Psychiatrists’ Offices

Over at Tony White, there are two posts (1, 2) about home visits. It was a fascinating series and got a lot of reactions. Go read them first.
I used to make a lot more home visits, especially with the palliative care service. I never ever was sorry. I found so many things I’d never know [...]

Fear and Hope and Wellbutrin

For a day or two, I thought it was working well – not well, but it seemed like suddenly I fell back into myself, which is a strange expression, but only by becoming me again, I realized how swallowed up by this monster I had been, how lost I was. I speculate: where was I [...]

Thank you

To everyone who left a comment and emailed – it means a lot to me, and your generosity of spirit and perspicacity are so much deeper than the supposed professional. I hope that all of this medical training hasn’t beaten out of me the common-sense wisdom and gentleness with which you have responded to me [...]

Why oh why can I not fire this shrink?

Thanks so much to everyone who commented supportively. It means a lot.
I was going to cancel the shrink, having hit such a low that I knew that I’m beyond help by anything human. But then I thought, “That’s ridiculous, to not go to the doctor because you feel too bad.”
I went today and laid out [...]

Sinking into a depression

It started really two weeks ago, was progressively getting worse. The last time I saw the (useless) shrink I mentioned it, to which his answer was, “The things that are bothering you are things that medication doesn’t treat anyway.” I am not sure what to say to something so unhelpful. Mostly because I know that [...]