Borderlines?

The followup was this: I was there again, and he admitted that’s what he thought of me. In some ways, he was really immature about it. For example: instead of just telling me when asked  what I thought he thinks, he threw it back at me, “What do you think I think?” and I said [...]

On further reflection and the rest of the story

Today in the light of day, I still had the kick in the nuts feeling about it. But I made an appointment to go back…and just chill out. And explain why I feel so fucking betrayed. I did realize that part of it is just like what my father used to do to me. He [...]

Psychiatry claims another victim

…or Dona Juana falls for it again.
I have been having a really horrible week. So horrible, in fact, that almost every night on call I get to a point where it is difficult to avoid thinking about suicide seriously…climbing up to the top of a tall building and jumping. I have been inconsolable. I haven’t [...]

Article Link

Take a look here:
http://www.medscape.com/viewprogram/14636_pnt

I wasn’t expecting anything new in this article that came in my email updates, but it was worth reading because it made me laugh out loud. About halfway through, he describes the life of someone as full of “intermittent and recurrent chaos.”
Holy fucking hell. That is just hilarious. And I guess maybe [...]

It’s all coming back to me now

It is so strange how you can be okay for a while, enjoy life, live normally, and then, just when you breathe, overnight it all comes back. You’re crazy again, hurt again, suicidal again.
I must admit, even though I went back to an old, previously successful drug routine, I haven’t really stabilized out. How do [...]